Friday, September 29, 2023

The Starts of Our Another Love Story

The One behind me.

The One I am standing against.

Is radiating the brightest light behind me.

It creates the scariest shadow in front of me.


I stood still in fear, sobbing.

I know I just need to turn around.


He is just behind me.

The One I would never be able to see if I didnt try to see.

The One I would never be able to feel if I didn't try to feel.

The One who would do anything it takes to make me turn around to HIM.


I stood still in fear, crying.

I know I have to love HIM.

But I don't love HIM.


He is the Most-Loving.

He is the best one could ever have in life.

He is the answer.

But HIS love language is totally different to me.


I stood still in fear, shaking.

I am scared to love HIM.


The One behind me is the Most Powerful.

I was forced to give up on love.

I was forced to give up on warm hugs and embraces.

I was forced to accept that what I want is not the best for me.

I was forced to bow down to fate,

I was at my lowest point in life, broken, shattered, wounded and unwanted.

Tears fall down my cheeks unceasingly.

Defeated, I finally turned around,

I whispered weakly, ''我认命...'

And He was there,

Almightyly.

Closer to me than before.

Asking me to try loving Him.


Thats the starts of Our Another Love Story
















Sunday, May 21, 2023

Did I not Upload?

Yes I didn't.


You may think the my May 2023 may be empty, but it was the most heart filling month ever.

How many laps that I have completed.

How many people I have met.

How many good conversation I have had.

How many tasks I have completed.

How many good but also bad situation has passed.



There were so many scenes, so many changes, so many people involved in May.

They were all precious. A memory now.

I guess. I am they type who write when things get cloudy.

I guess. I am the type who write things, only when I was striked down.

Even if that is so,  it is alright.




Yours faithfully,

Precious

Saturday, April 22, 2023

The Bathroom



I was asked to clean an old, rarely used bathroom at night, 

Such a considerable punishement for someone who was fasting.

I went there alone, a little upset when I should not. 

Someone unexpected appeared.

Zhang Zi Xuan, the squad leader of Team 1. 

The one who punished me to clean was now in his cleaning attire in front of the bathroom.

I thought he was there to inspect.


“我刚开始……”
“Wǒ gāng kāishǐ……”
"I just started.." I told him

 “那太好了……”
“nà tài hǎole……”
"That's great..." He answered and began removing the cobwebs in the ceiling.

 “你为什么.... 
“Nǐ wèishéme....”
"Why are you....?" I asked him surprised.

 “因为我是班长……”
“Yīnwèi wǒ shì bānzhǎng……”
"Because I am the squad leader..."

 

I looked at him. He was the one who punished me to clean the bathroom and he was helping me to clean. I couldn't accept his reason to help and he seemed to realize that.

He stopped brushing the cobwebs. Taking few seconds before he elaborated. 

 “因为如果你不能适应训练,那也是我的责任……”
“Yīnwèi rúguǒ nǐ bùnéng shìyìng xùnliàn, nà yěshì wǒ de zérèn……”
"Because it is also my responsibility if you cannot adapt with the training..." 

"服了吗?"
"Fúle ma?"
"Convinced?"

"I'm not convinced "
"我不服 "
"Wǒ bù fú"


“你能碰到天花板吗?”
“Nǐ néng pèng dào tiānhuābǎn ma?”
"Can you reach the ceiling?"

He changed the topic. Both of the squad leader, who are named Zhang, are very good in diverting the conversation. 

 
“我可以拿椅子或梯子……”
“Wǒ kěyǐ ná yǐzi huò tīzi……”
"I can take chairs or ladder..."

I tried to refuse his help. 

“在哪里?”
“Zài nǎlǐ?”
"Where?"

“我去问问……”
“Wǒ qù wèn wèn……”
"I will ask around..." 


我来都来了.
Wǒ lái dōu láile.
I'm here.

你还想找梯子吗?
Nǐ hái xiǎng zhǎo tīzi ma?
Do you still want to find a ladder?

 

From his tone of voice. I know he wished to hear no further refutement. 

From his expression. I know I would be in further trouble if I wish to continue.


That night, the passing base comrades who passed by stopped and said their greetings before they started their night run. 

At the end of the cleaning, Zhi Xuan told me to use the bathroom during my stay in the base. The only women's bathroom were at the block A, which was quite far from my dormitory. They have decided to put this old bathroom into operation again.


What changes that night I cleaned the bathroom are:

My impression towards Zhang Zi Xuan.

Our relationship.


I was.

Being agitated towards people.

Without Reason.


 What didn't change that night I cleaned the bathroom is:

I was.

Still the old me.


So that night, I went out running after the cleaning.


The Infirmary


The last thing I remember was, 

I was walking around the corridor.

That was all.


I opened my eyes under a warm wool comforter, shined by the morning light passing through the window.

I know the setting of this familiar place

It is the same everywhere in the world - The infirmary

I looked at the clock on the wall, and it was 9 in the morning.

    It was only 9 in the morning and I passed out!


My movement has caught the attention of a comrade in the room.

He approached without any footsteps sound.

你醒了...
Nǐ xǐngle...
You are awake...


I look at him for a few second, but then concluded to myself that I did not know him.

你是...?
Nǐ shì...?
You are...?


我是诗涌。 小队 1 的军医。
Wǒ shì Shī Yǒng. Xiǎoduì 1 de jūnyī.
I am Shi Yong. The medic from squad team 1.

 

I looked at Shi Yong without any expressions. To be exact,

I don't know how to feel.


别担心。 
Bié dānxīn.  
Don't worry. 

你只需要休息。
Nǐ zhǐ xūyào xiūxí.
You just need to rest. 

谁带我来这里?
Shéi dài wǒ lái zhèlǐ?
Who took me here? 


张班长.
Zhāng bānzhǎng.
Zhang squad leader.

2小队今天不是有任务吗?
2 Xiǎoduì jīntiān bùshì yǒu rènwù ma?
Didn't team 2 has a mission today?


哦 是一队班长
Ó shì yī duì bānzhǎng
Oh it's the team one squad leader 


I then remembered, the man who borrowed me the walkie talkie on my first day at the base.

他也叫张?
Tā yě jiào Zhāng?
He is also called Zhang?

是的,他叫张子轩
Shì de, tā jiào Zhāng zi xuān
Yes, his name is Zhang Zi xuan

 

I nodded, trying to remember his face but couldn't. 
I turned to Shi Long.

那么现在……我去……跑…?
Nàme xiànzài…wǒ qù…pǎo?
Then now...I go... run...?

I was worried about the punishement. 


Shi Long smiled.

你可以去跑步,但不是现在..
Nǐ kěyǐ qù pǎobù, dàn bùshì xiànzài..
You can go run, but not now..

我必须在这里待多久?
Wǒ bìxū zài zhèlǐ dài duōjiǔ?
How long I have to stay here?


待到我们班长回来...
Dài dào wǒmen bānzhǎng huílái...
Stay until our squad leader return...

好吧。
Hǎo ba.
Alright.

 

Zhang Zi Xuan. 

Appeared after one hour I woke up.

I have been waiting with my eyes closed until I could hear a voice.

你感觉怎么样?
Nǐ gǎnjué zěnme yàng?
How are you feeling?

 I opened my eyes and it was Zhang Zi Xuan

好多了。
Hǎoduōle.
I felt much better.


He looked very different than when I first saw him.

It took him a while before he stated.


今晚打扫二楼的卫生间
Jīn wǎn dǎsǎo èr lóu de wèishēngjiān
"Clean the bathroom on the second floor tonight"

Well, I was not expecting myself to be receiving any special treatment. I myself felt that I need to punished somehow.

明白
míngbái
"Understood"

He then added. 


跑一圈
“pǎo yī quān”
"One lap of running"

I accepted. 

明白
míngbái
"Understood" 


今晚。不是现在
jīn wǎn. Bùshì xiànzài
"Tonight. Not Now"

明白
míngbái
Understood

 

 

Monday, April 17, 2023

Do you want to run?

 When one is at fault, and it is the whole team responsibility.
Don't let others run because of you!

For the first time in my life, I didnt know what to do in my 15 minutes break.

I walked to the sofa and lied down with the blanket. Lao Long who has been watching me walked towards me out of worry.

发生了什么? 你还好吗?
Fāshēngle shénme? Nǐ hái hǎo ma?
What happened? Are you okay? 


这是我的休息时间。 15分钟。 但是班长拿走了我的手机。 
Zhè shì wǒ de xiūxí shíjiān. 15 Fēnzhōng. Dànshì bānzhǎng ná zǒule wǒ de shǒujī. 
It's my break time. 15 minutes. But Squad leader took my handphone. 

现在,我太自由了……
Xiànzài, wǒ tài zìyóule……
Now, I am too free...


可以出去走走。。。
Kěyǐ chūqù zǒu zǒu...
You can go for a walk outside...

我累了。 让我小睡一会儿......
 Wǒ lèile. Ràng wǒ xiǎoshuì yīhuǐ'er......
I'm tired. Let me take a nap....

Lao Long quickly took my blanket as he said sternly,

起来...
Qǐlái...
Stand up...

为什么你...
Wèishéme nǐ...
Why did you... 

一个人累了,班长叫我们都跑……你忘记了吗?
Yīgè rén lèile, bānzhǎng jiào wǒmen dōu pǎo……nǐ wàngjìle ma?
If one person is tired, squad leader ask us all to run... Did you forget already?

你真的想现在就跑吗?
Nǐ zhēn de xiǎng xiànzài jiù pǎo ma?
Did you really want to run now?


你不是说累吗?
Nǐ bùshì shuō lèi ma?
Didn't you say you are tired?

一定要这么严格吗?
Yīdìng yào zhème yángé ma?
Must it be this strict?


宝儿,如果你抱怨,也必须跑..
Bao Er, Rúguǒ nǐ bàoyuàn,  yě bìxū pǎo..
Bao Er, If you complain, have to run too..

好的。 好的。 好的。 我找事情做...
Hǎo de. Hǎo de. Hǎo de. Wǒ zhǎo shìqíng zuò...
Ok. Ok. Ok. I find things to do...

我们不要跑,好吗?
Wǒmen bùyào pǎo, hǎo ma?
Let's not run, ok?

 

So I decided to write. 

After around 5 minutes, Zhang made his round and saw us me in the study room with basemates from other squad.

你不跑?
Nǐ bù pǎo?
You don't run?

班长我没睡! 我真的没睡……
Bānzhǎng wǒ méi shuì! Wǒ zhēn de méi shuì……
Squad leader I didn't sleep! I really didn't sleep...

我不需要跑
Wǒ bù xūyào pǎo
I dont need to run 

我今天不会让自己跑步...
Wǒ jīntiān bù huì ràng zìjǐ pǎobù...
I will not make myself run today... 

那我祝你好运
Nà wǒ zhù nǐ hǎo yùn
I wish you good luck then 

别忘了……如果别人在睡觉,你也会被拖着跑……
Bié wàngle……rúguǒ biérén zài shuìjiào, nǐ yě huì bèi tuōzhe pǎo……
Don't forget... If other is sleeping, you will be drag to run too...

I sighed. 




Wang Lei was fighting his sleepiness and Feng Huang was trying to break the silence in the room.

诶王磊……你今天没睡啊……
Éi wánglěi……nǐ jīntiān méi shuì a……
Eii Wang Lei... You didn't fall asleep today...

我怎么睡觉? 宝儿在斋戒……
Wǒ zěnme shuìjiào? Bǎo er zài zhāijiè……
How do I sleep? Bao Er is fasting...


你害怕她不得不跑?
 Nǐ hàipà tā bùdé bù pǎo?
You are scared she has to run?


嗯..
Ń..
Hm..


没想到你这么细心
Méi xiǎngdào nǐ zhème xìxīn
I don't expect you to be this caring...

大家都是队友... 我不想给我的队友添麻烦。
Dàjiā dōu shì duìyǒu... Wǒ bùxiǎng gěi wǒ de duìyǒu tiān máfan.
Everyone is teammates...I don't want to give fifficulty to my teammates.


如果她听到这话,一定会很感动……
Rúguǒ tā tīng dào zhè huà, yīdìng huì hěn gǎndòng……
If she hear this, she would be touched...

嘿你们两个! 我在这...
Hēi nǐmen liǎng gè! Wǒ zài zhè...
Hey both of you! I'm here...


你感动还是不感动?
Nǐ gǎndòng háishì bù gǎndòng?
You are touched or not?

太感动了,我想和他一起去夜跑……
Tài gǎndòngle, wǒ xiǎng hé tā yīqǐ qù yè pǎo……
I am so touched that I am thinking of joining him for his night run...

Everyone in the room laughed.

我等你啊!
Wǒ děng nǐ a!
I'll wait for you ah!
 

 

The Phone Confiscation Day

 

We were already up by 4.30 in the morning, with closed eyes, eating and cleaning. I was about to return to my dormitory when I was stopped by Feng Huang.

宝儿!
Bǎo er!
Precious!

我有一个视频想给你看
Wǒ yǒu yīgè shìpín xiǎng gěi nǐ kàn
I have a video I want to show you

什么视频?
Shénme shìpín?
What video?

这……这……
Zhè……zhè……
This... This...

So, both of us were getting into the video so much.


嗯? 这是什么时候的救援?
Ń? Zhè shì shénme shíhòu de jiùyuán?
Eh? When was this rescue?

Yesterday...
昨天...
Zuótiān...

好帅啊……!
Hǎo shuài a……!
How handsome....!

他们是基地对面消防队的!
Tāmen shì jīdì duìmiàn xiāofáng duì de!
They are from the fire brigade across the base!

真假的?
Zhēn jiǎ de?
It is true?

当然是真的。。
Dāngrán shì zhēn de..
Of course it is true..

我可以看其他视频吗?
Wǒ kěyǐ kàn qítā shìpín ma?
Can I see other video?

可以..可以...你也可以关注他们的账号
Kěyǐ.. Kěyǐ... Nǐ yě kěyǐ guānzhù tāmen de zhànghào
Can.. can... You can also follow their account

We wasted almost 10 minutes along the corridor and didn't realize that we are being observed through the CCTV. If Our Squad Leader didn't come, we could still be watching videos for another one hour.

宝儿! 凰儿!
Bǎo er! Huang Er!
Precious! Huang!

We were called out by Zhang from the end of the corridor. 

Both of us ran towards him, facing him but trying to look away from his gaze.

What are both of you still doing?
你们还愣着干什么?
Nǐmen hái lèngzhe gànshénme? 

班长... 我们就是...
Bānzhǎng... Wǒmen jiùshì...
Leader... We are.. 

把手机都给我……! 
Bǎ shǒujī dōu gěi wǒ……! 
Give me all your phones...! 

We passed him our phone. I have accepted my fate for the day but Feng Huang was still trying to negotiate.


班长……要是有人给我打电话怎么办?
Bānzhǎng……yàoshi yǒurén gěi wǒ dǎ diànhuà zěnme bàn?
Squad Leader... What if someone call me? 

那我帮你解答。。。
Nà wǒ bāng nǐ jiědá...
Then I'll help you answer...

班长……
Bānzhǎng……
Squad leader....

你还敢说话!
Nǐ hái gǎn shuōhuà!
You still dare talking!

你检查你今天的日程了吗?
Nǐ jiǎnchá nǐ jīntiān de rìchéngle ma?
Have you check your schedule today?

我检查过!
Wǒ jiǎncháguò!
I have checked!

忙不忙?
Máng bù máng?
Busy or not?

Busy!
忙!
Máng!

你还会看视频吗?
Nǐ hái huì kàn shìpín ma?
Will you still watch video? 

我不会!
Wǒ bù huì!
I will not!

宝儿?!
Bǎo er?!
Precious?!

我也不会!
Wǒ yě bù huì!
I will also not!

我今天会保留你们的手机
Wǒ jīntiān huì bǎoliú nǐmen de shǒujī
I will keep your phones today

你有什么要说的?
Nǐ yǒu shé me yào shuō de?
Do you have anything to say?

班长,今天你真帅!
Bānzhǎng, jīntiān nǐ zhēn shuài!
Squad leader, today you look so handsome!

好! 宝儿? 你有社么要说的吗?
Hǎo! Bǎo er? Nǐ yǒu shè me yào shuō de ma?
Good! Bao Er? Do you have anything to say?

章班长!
Zhāng bānzhǎng!
Squad Leader Zhang!

It took me quite a few second to figure out what I should be saying. Both Zhang and Feng Huang waited calmly. 

I took my breath, ready to shout out load and clearly.

今天。
Jīntiān. 
Today. 

I comtemplated.

你比对面的消防员还帅!
Nǐ bǐ duìmiàn de xiāofáng yuán hái shuài!
You are more handsome than the opposite firefighter! 

I was sure that everyone around the corridor could hear that as I heard roaring of laugher following my statement. Everyone has been listening. I sighed out after betraying my heroes. But it was worth it. Our leader looked pleased and there was a chance I would get my phone five minutes earlier than Huang that day.


看来你输了……凤凰……
Kàn lái nǐ shūle……fènghuáng……
"It looks like you lose... Feng Huang..." said Zhang. 


The Form

 

The first meeting with Squad 2 teammates.

Two people gave a great impression to me. 

"I am Long..."

"I am De..."

They look identical.

"Twin..." said one of the twin.

De directed his hand to Long, "Lao Ge.."

Long directed his hand to De, "Lao Di..."

"Looking forward to get busy with you..." said the two

 


The rest of the members arrived before 9 AM, settling down into our respective desks that were arranged in a circle. We all can see each other and the setting of the desks was indeed for a discussion type of session. We all waited for the Squad Leader, Zhang who arrived not long after with a bunch of papers.

"All of you need to answer this form again. Log into your account. The question has been updated.."

The form is almost 10 pages and I quickly looked up to Zhang the Squad Leader for further instructions, so do the other teammates. Nobody is complaining. 

"As you all can see. They are 10 pages. The instruction is very simple. Answer all the questions. Understood?" asked Zhang.

"Understood..." we replied synchronizely 

"Pair up. Talk with each other and get to know everyone better from the questions. Understood?"

"Understood..." 

Zhang then took his seat, 2 o'clock from my seat. 

As everyone was turning to their partner, Wang Lei turned to me. 

"Bao Er, Let's pair up..."

"Okay..." I answered and we turned to each other, reading the questions together

The session was full of chaos but Zhang was not saying anything to stop any of us.


"Leader... Look at Lu's motto. Isn't this too simple..."

"Why do you care? Just write yours..."

"Is that considered a life motto...?"

"What is yours then?" 

'Strong alone stronger together'? 

Wow okay I'll change mine.."


Wang Lei and I were in our own world. Since this is my first time filling up this kind of form, he filled his form according to my speed. We discussed the detail and our thoughts on the questions together.

"May I know what do you write for the first question?" I asked him.

"Here..." He showed his laptop to me, allowing me to read it myself.

What do you life for?
For the people, the country and its interest. 


 What is your life motto?
Running to serve the people and country 


 What is the most important thing in my life?
The peace of the country 


Who are the most important people in my life?
The people, my comrades, the country

 

I looked up to him, pausing for a second, swallowing my saliva. I began to realize the seriousness of this form and the need for us to be truly true to ourselves to answer the questions. He is such a ptriotic man. As patriotic as Zandt is.

We answered all the questions as the clock was ticking.

Wang Lei suddenly asked. "Can I see your form...?"

I showed mine to him without any thoughts. He read my form in seriousness. That itself has proven me on how he respect the differences in our individual fight. 

The questions began to get less serious in the middle part of the form. There are questions on 'What do you like' and Wang Lei looked betrayed as he read my answer.

“消防员?!”
“Xiāofángyuán?!”
"Firefighter?" Wang Lei look baffled as his right hand were pointed out to the window.

I nodded without further explanation.

班长。 我有话要说!
Bānzhǎng. Wǒ yǒu huà yào shuō!
Squad leader. I have something to say!

说!
Shuō!
Say it!

宝儿喜欢对面基地的小队!
Bǎo er xǐhuān duìmiàn jīdì de xiǎoduì!
Bao Er like the squad from the opposite base!

你现在才发现吗?
Nǐ xiànzài cái fāxiàn ma?
Did you just discover it now?

是啊,我才发现……
Shì a, wǒ cái fāxiàn……
That's right I just discover that..
 
你们都知道吗?
Nǐmen dōu zhīdào ma?
Did you all know about it?

看看她的水瓶和手机……
Kàn kàn tā de shuǐpíng hé shǒujī……
Look at her water bottle and handphone....

我怎么到现在才意识到?
Wǒ zěnme dào xiànzài cái yìshí dào?
How come I only realized it now?

除了跑步,你还懂什么?
Chúle pǎobù, nǐ hái dǒng shénme?
Apart from running, what else do you know?

 

I laughed at Long's statement. I was looking through Wang Lei's form and indeed. He likes running very much. He answered running to almost all questions. Running is his solution for everything and I found that his one track mind is very amazing. 

Zhang was then, back into his leader mode.

"This form will be viewed by everyone in the base. It will be in the data base and anyone can access to find out about in detail about you. Some may find it equal to the act of breaching personal data. But here. This is the first step in buiding trust between the comrades...." explained Zhang before he continued.

"Understanding yourself is vital. Facing your true self is courage. Allowing the comrades to face the true you is trust..."

"Also. After a month, you will be seeing this form again. You have to work  hard so there would be some or great changes to the contents. Have I made myself clear...?"

         "YES!" we all answered together.



Zhang collected our date and took around 15 minutes to go through all the details of the team. As expected from the leader.

"Mu Jun, Feng Huang, De, Wang Lei, Bao Er. All of you wrote handphone as your distractions. If I caught any of you, beign distracted during mission, classes, squad activity, I will confiscate your handphone..."

All of us looked at each other with hanging jaw but answered synchronizely, "Understood"

"For those who find it hard to control their emotion, easily tired or sleepy during tasks, I want them to run. Any team member that present whenever the member lose their self is to run together. Understood?"

"Understood!"

"Bao Er!"

"Yes!"

"Most of your content here is higlighting 'Weak'..."

"Yes!"

"I'll have Squad 1 to guide you on your pysical plans. I'll work on the intellectual side. Squad 3 and 4 will take emotional and spiritual respectively. Any questions?"

"No questions"

"Those who has problem mingling with people.... I will try to organize more collaboration with the outside oraganization and each of you must take part. Understood?

"Understood"

"So far, I'll only highlight certain issues. I'll go in depth later and let you know personally, if I want to assign you with any mission or tasks.

"Understood..."

"Dismiss"


         

Saturday, April 15, 2023

Deciding the Team

The seriousness of the atmosphere.

The wrinkled forehead.

"Must she be assigned to one permanent group?"

"That should the best arrangement..." 

"Maybe she can have one permanent squad but is allowed to join other squad activity..."

"We are culturing teamwork. If we allow her attaching and detaching. Wouldn't it affect the squad teamwork...?"

"Assigning her to one group may reduce her teamwork with the other basemates..."

"What about assigned her according to activity, not squad"

 "For example, for running, stretching, working out, she'll team up with Squad 1. Classes with Squad Two. Indoor, outdoor activities, campaign, communication, Squad 3. Cooking, cleaning, Squad 4. Leisure time, outing day, Squad 5..."

"Will there be any clashes in the schedule..." 

"Yes, there would be. That's a headache..."

"Zhang! Say something..." 

"Whatabout letting her decide? She is in all group, but which activity she is joining, with which squad, it's up to her..."

 "Means everyone is responsible for her..."

"And she is responsible of herself..."

           "Should we wait for Zi Xuan to make the final decision?"

"He said he would follow the rest..."

"Alright, that's that then..." 


And finally they bring me into the discussion.

"Did you get it?"

"Yes. I did..."



Opening Up

The base where I am staying now, is different than the places I used to live before.
The people I am befriending now, is different than the people I used to befriend before.



I have beginning to open up.
I began to remember the name of my base comrades. 
I began to involve myself in their schedule as it is now 'my schedule'
I began to be part of them, deep inside, wishing that they would one day, become a part of me.

I have beginning to open up.
I love their conversation.
I love their mindset.
I love their comradeship.
I love to just be around them.
I love how human they are
I love how childish they could get. 
I love how serious they could turn 
I love how they never judge but trust. 
I love their random quotes. 

"Trust me as I trust you"
"No issue, Create no issue"
"We are all busy together"
"Look forward..."
"No cry" 
"Make it simple..." 


Sincerely,

Precious

PC 2
Computer room
2nd floor 
The Base

Friday, April 14, 2023

As Long As The Heart Beats

Breathless in the Air.

Breathing in the Shadow Mist.

A Human but turned Shadow.

A Shadow but Her Heart Beats.

"Get a hold of yourself! I told her sternly. 

"It is not Wingfield ..." she whispered weakly before adding, "It's me..."

"Precious..." 

"It turns out that, it was me ..." she said heartbreakingly.

"I was the one who activate the Shadow Poison in myself... "

"Precious..." 

Wingfield is just carrying out my order...." she stated.

"Precious..." I called her name again.

"You know...." she stated as she looked straight into my eyes heartbreakingly.

"You know...." she repeated.

"Precious calm down..." I told her softly

"That's why you cannot do anything to Wingfield..." 

"Precious..." I called her name again.

"Becuse it is me. I was the one who take the poison ..." She came to realize the truth.

"Alright calm down..." I told her again.

"I was being suicidal..." she stated breathlessly

"No, Precious..."

"The poison could have stay under control but I, I took more.. I was the one taking the poison"

"Precious listen to me..."  

"Is Wingfield here?"

"Precious..." 

"He is out there listening I know...."

"Can you listen to me for a moment..." I told her desperately.

"Comrade Wingfield, Comrade Zandt...."

"Precious!"

"From this moment onward. Both of you are to stay out of my case ..."

"Are you out of mind?!"

"Until when are you going to keep saving me?!" 

"Until you find the solution. You have to find the solution... Only you can find the solution"

"What if I still couldn't find it? 

"Then keep finding..." I stated sternly

"El..... I  no longer breathe air..." 

"As long as you are still breathing. Be it breathing the air or the Shadow mist... I would not stay out of this case..."

         "Everynight I took Shadow Poison to Sleep..." 

"Then everynight ahead, I will stop you. If I couldn't, I would keep fighting to bring you back ..."

"It's not worth it, for a Shadow..."

"What I look at is the heart. As long as that heart is beating, it is worth it... "

"You are crazy..."

"I am crazy so don't let me go crazier....."


She called herself a Shadow.

Poisoned-blood runs freely in her veins.

The air of reality chokes her breathless. 

The Shadow poison keep her breathing imaginatively.

Shadow sleep haunts her every night. 

She wanted us to let her go.

But how could we?

When she herself has not let go.

When her heart beats the loudest in her Shadow Sleep

When her heart beats the strongest with the poison running in her veins.

When her heart kept pumping in the Shadow Mist. 

With what right do I decide her worth? 

 As long as that heart is still beating.

Be she a human or a shadow.

I would keep fighting for her.


She called herself a Shadow.

She think she is ugly.

She think she is weak.

She think she is complicated.

She think she does not derserve any goodness.

She put herself the lowest

With what right does she decide her worth?

As long as that heart is still beating.

Be she a human or a shadow.

She is my most prettiest.

She is my strongest.

She is the simplest.

She deserves all goodness.

She has the highest place in my heart.

Be she a human or a shadow.

I would keep fighting for her. 




Faithfully,

Eldrad Van Zant of the ZA
The State of Heracovia
Mayne









Thursday, April 13, 2023

The Jacket

Dinner was as usual, lively. Everyone looks as if they were so satisfied with their life that day. But I was there with a paper bag containing the shirt jacket, looking troubled as always.

I turned to the person sitting next to me. I feel bad as I didn't even know his name. 

"Do you by any chance know Zhang?"

"Zhang?"

"Yes..."

"I am not sure if he is back. I'll give him a call..."

 

I waited.

老大你回来了吗?
Lǎodà nǐ huíláile ma?
Boss, are you back? 

马上到了. 有什么事了吗?
Mǎshàng dàole. Yǒu shé me shìle ma?
We'll be there soon. What's the matter?

宝儿找你...
Bǎo er zhǎo nǐ...
Bao Er is looking for you...

那你们两个,在正门等着。 带几个人过来.
Nà nǐmen liǎng gè, zài zhèngmén děngzhe. Dài jǐ gèrén guòlái.
Then you two, wait at the main entrance. Bring a few people over.

班长! 你买好吃的?
Bānzhǎng! Nǐ mǎi hào chī de?
Squad leader! You buy something delicious?

奶茶...
Nǎichá...
Milk tea...

你买了多少?
Nǐ mǎile duōshǎo?
How many did you buy?

我给基地里的每个人都买了。。
Wǒ jǐ jīdì lǐ de měi gèrén dōu mǎile..
I bought it for everyone in the base..


班长你是最棒的!
Bānzhǎng nǐ shì zuì bàng de! 
Captain, you are the best! 

好的,别忘了带一些人来帮忙
Hǎo de, bié wàngle dài yīxiē rén lái bāngmáng
Ok dont forgetbring over some people to help..

收到!
Shōu dào!
Roger!


The news of 'Milk Tea' brought chaos to everyone in the cafetaria. The joy radiated from their faces and excitement, I could not describe. 

On the way to the main gate, I asked Lu, finally knew the name of the person who helped me contacted Zhang.

"Is Zhang a squad leader too?"

"Yes. He is our Squad Leader. We are Team 2..."

 

I nodded after registering that information in my head.

When we arrived at the main gate, there was a car waiting with boxes containing more than 50 milk tea.

The other base mates ran forwards to help carry the boxes. They looked very pleased with what they were getting as dessert that night. And I was busy locating Zhang.

It was not hard. In that windy night where everyone was wearing warm clothes, only one person was in white t-shirt and brown cargo pants. I waited, gripped the handled of the paper bag tightly, waiting for the right timing to approach Zhang. I became nervous because I recognized him.

He is the one who said, "不哭' in the elevator the other day.

The milk tea distribution operation ended quicker than I thought and Zhang quickly approached me, bringing over a milk tea for me, smiling as he stated in a joking tone.

你是怎么睡在那里的?
Nǐ shì zěnme shuì zài nàlǐ de?
How did you even fall sleep there?

I quickly passed him the jacket as the cold wind starts to greet again that night.

对不起,你今天没穿夹克就出去了……
Duìbùqǐ, nǐ jīntiān méi chuān jiákè jiù chūqùle……
I'm sorry that you went out without a jacket today... 

He took the jacket and put it on as he passed me the milk tea he bought.

不,不用道歉……我只是怕你着凉
Bù, bùyòng dàoqiàn……wǒ zhǐshì pà nǐ zháoliáng
No, don't apologize... I am just scared that you'd feel cold..

每个人都说了同样的话...
Měi gèrén dōu shuōle tóngyàng dehuà...
Everyone said the same thing...

Zhang laughed at my statement before asking,

其他队友也给你他们的夹克......?
Qítā duìyǒu yě gěi nǐ tāmen de jiákè......?
Other teammates also give you their jacket...? 

冬儿还拿了供应室的毯子。。
Dōng er hái nále gōngyìng shì de tǎnzi..
Dong er even took the blanket from the supply room..

That kid ....
那个孩子....
Nàgè háizi ....

我觉得你们挺有爱心的... 好羡慕
Wǒ juédé nǐmen tǐng yǒu àixīn de... Hǎo xiànmù
I think you guys are very caring... I'm so envious

你不是吗?
Nǐ bùshì ma?
Are you not?

I shook my head as a definite 'No'. I was unable to answer as I felt choked. But Zhang waited. He waited until I was able to swallow and answer his question.

我不是.
Wǒ bùshì.
I'm not.

喝奶茶。 你的不太甜..
Hē nǎichá. Nǐ de bù tài tián..
Drink the milk tea. Yours is very less sweet.. 

 

He changed the topic.

The milk tea really does not felt as sweet as it usually is. Changing the topic saved the day. 

Zhang is very much the character I wish to be. 


Sincerely,

Precious

Sleeping is Coldness


It felt so hot, not warmth. 

I was literally sweating all over.

I opened my eyes and felt something heavy were all over my body.

It was absurb that I just fall asleep on the bench in front of the base main entrance.

But the most absurb thing was that,  different kind of jacket, you name it. The varsity, the bomber, shirt jacket, denim jacket and even the base blanket were all over me.

I looked left and right and saw no one was around. 

But the comrade voices could be heard faintly from different places. The basketball court, the main compound, the back garden, the cafeteria and others.

It took me quite some time to be fully awake and to decide what to do with all the jackets and blanket left with me at the bench.

"How do I return these? How do I even carry this around?"

I sighed but then remembered the walkie-talkie I received from the Squad Leader. I quickly got it out off my bag.

班长... 是我, 宝儿. 
Bānzhǎng... Shì wǒ, Bǎo Er.
Monitor it's me Bao Er.

Just after a few second, I was answered...

是宝儿……有什么事吗?
Shì bǎo er……yǒu shé me shì ma? 
Yes Bao Er... anything? 

我这里好像有点事
Wǒ zhèlǐ hǎoxiàng yǒudiǎn shì 
I seem to have some matter here 

你在哪里?
Nǐ zài nǎlǐ?
Where are you?

主入口处的长椅...
Zhǔ rùkǒu chǔ de cháng yǐ...
The bench at the main entrance... 

收到. 马上来
Shōu dào. Mǎshàng lái
Receive. Coming over

When I saw the squad leader came running over, I smiled apologetically. I did not know how to explain the situation but as I showed him all the jackets next to me, he understood the situation right away. 

He took out his walkie talkie,

谁把外套借给宝儿的,是马上过来……
Shéi bǎ wàitào jiè gěi bǎo er de, shì mǎshàng guòlái……
Who lend their jacket to Bao Er is to come over right away ...

 

The squad leader laughed and asked, "Did you sleep here?"

"I fall asleep..." I asnwered bashfully.

"Please don't mind us... To us sleeping is coldness...." he explained.

I laughed, "I don't mind at all.... I was just surprised at the number of jackets here..."

"If I was the one who passed by here just now, my jacket would be here as well..."


The first comrade came running, greeting the squad leader before turning to me, asking me in whisper as he took his jacket.

你醒了...
Nǐ xǐngle...
You're awake... 

I nodded and said my thanks. 

The next two comrades who came running did the same as the first comrade. He said something before he left too.

你吓到我了……我以为你晕倒了。 
Nǐ xià dào wǒle……wǒ yǐwéi nǐ yūn dǎo le. 
You scared me... I thought you fainted.

The next comrade came to claim the blanket. The squad leader slapped his head and stopped him before he left,

"Dong Er"
"Yes!"
"You bring a blanket over?"
"I am afraid Bao Er will be cold..."
"Whose blanket is it?"
"It's a new blanket. I took it from the supply room..."
"Alright. alright. You are really something.."

 

The owner of the last jacket, also the first person who started this jacket covering madness, did not come and the squad leader smiled.

"That shirt jacket belongs to Zhang... He went out of the base for an errand. Will return at night..."

"Oh then.. I'll return it to him later..." I replied, now thinking of the interaction that I would have to make to locate this 'Zhang' later.

"What's your plan now?" asked the squad leader before he added, "My team will go for the evening jog if you want to join... "

"Today, I may have to decline......."

"Alright. Then, see you at dinner time.."

I nodded, "See you there..."


Sleeping is Coldness.

Who in the world created that belief I wonder?

It wasnt warmth but hot passionate youth souls that I feel that evening.


Sincerely,

Precious

Monday, April 10, 2023

Enrolling into the Base


It's Ramadan 20,

First, let's recap yesterday.
I sent myself to the base, 
Unwilingly,  
I cried the whole day,
pitifully, sadly.
I felt so different.
The comrades are the opposite of me.
I was not used to be welcomed warmly,
by so many positivity.


The first Day at the Base.

I was in the elevator to the cafeteria for Sahur at 4.30AM, with swollen eyes from the crying a day before. The elevator stopped at one of the floor and one comrade walked in. After few seconds in awkward silence, I heard "不哭..." coming from the comrade.

I nodded as a thank.

At the cafetaria, another young comrade passed me a cold compress without saying anything as he took his seat next to me to eat. Well, the cold compress does make my swollen eyes felt much better. 

In few seconds the cafeteria was filled up with people. I guess it is the base rules. Everyone came to eat at the same table, together. It is very lively though everybody is focusing on eating.

Another comrade came with a cup of water, "您喝多一点水" and I said my thanks, thankfully.

A comrade who approached me after Dusk was the squad leader for Team 1. He briefed me on their schedule and allowed me to join them in some of the activity of the day. As for the other time, I am free to do what I want. If I want to leave the base, I would have to report and get the permission from the Higher Officer. 

He left me with a walkie talkie and said, "有事...可以找我"

The base is not the answer. But I should be able to make something out of the time I would be spending here. 

End of Report
Precious.

Wednesday, April 5, 2023

The Tikitaka Talk



Once a comrade, forever a comrade. Siblings vow! Salute!


At the sight of Frann, who appeared without a sound from nowhere, Hanne sighed.
Frann stood, leaning his right side of his body to the door frame, 
crossing his arm, smiling to his own private jokes in his head as he looked at his sister.

你今天怎么样?
Nǐ jīntiān zěnme yàng?
How are you today?


你是什​​么意思?
Nǐ shì shén​​me yìsi?
What do you mean?

 你一个人能搞定吗?
Nǐ yīgè rén néng gǎodìng ma?
Can you manage, alone?


他告诉你?
Tā gàosù nǐ?
He told you?

嗯。
Ń.
Uh


那你还问?
Nà nǐ hái wèn?
Then you still ask?

嗯。
Ń.
Uh


我没事...
Wǒ méishì...
I'm alright...

有哪里受伤了吗?
Yǒu nǎlǐ shòushāngle ma?
Is there any injury?


No...
没有...
Méiyǒu...

今天你哭了吗...?
Jīntiān nǐ kūle ma...?
Did you cry today...?


我没有...
Wǒ méiyǒu...
I did not....

你一个人,没有人照顾...
Nǐ yīgè rén, méiyǒu rén zhàogù nǐ...
You alone, There's no one taking care of you...

来我的基地怎么样?
Lái wǒ de jīdì zěnme yàng?
How about coming to my base?


你很忙,你会怎么照顾我……?
Nǐ hěn máng, nǐ huì zěnme zhàogù wǒ……?
You are busy, how will you take care of me...?

还是去El的基地比较好……
Háishì qù El de jīdì bǐjiào hǎo……
It is better if I go to El's base...

他比我更忙你知道吗...
Tā bǐ wǒ gèng máng nǐ zhīdào ma...
He's busier than me you know...


还有,你把你的大脑带回来了吗
Hái yǒu, nǐ bǎ nǐ de dànǎo dài huíláile ma?

And, did you bring your brain back?

妹妹,我们在同一个基地。 他的基地也是我的基地。
Mèimei, wǒmen zài tóng yīgè jīdì. Tā de jīdì yěshì wǒ de jīdì.
Little sister, we are at the same base. His base is also my base. 

哥...你就不能好好说话吗...?
Gē nǐ jiù bùnéng hǎohǎo shuōhuà ma...?
Can't you speak nicely...?

我到底是谁的妹妹? El对我比你好!
Wǒ dàodǐ shì shéi de mèimei? El duì wǒ bǐ nǐ hǎo!
Whose sister am I exactly? El treats me better than you!

那你就让他做你哥哥吧
Nà nǐ jiù ràng tā zuò nǐ gēgē ba
Then let him be your brother

你再说 ...我就打你!
nǐ zàishuō... Wǒ jiù dǎ nǐ!
If you keep talking...I'll hit you!

那就打我吧!
Nà jiù dǎ wǒ ba!
Hit me then!

来! 我让你打我...
Lái! Wǒ ràng nǐ dǎ wǒ...
Come! I'll let you hit me...

我说来啊...
Wǒ shuō lái a...
I say come on...

我傻吗?
Wǒ shǎ ma?
Am I fool? 

刚刚不是说要打我了嘛?
Gānggāng bùshì shuō yào dǎ wǒle ma?
Didn't you just say you were going to hit me?

我打你... 那你也会打我呀...
Wǒ dǎ nǐ... Nà nǐ yě huì dǎ wǒ ya...
I hit you...then you'll hit me too...

那你傻啊...
Nà nǐ shǎ a...
Then you are stupid...

我打过你吗? 我敢打你吗?
Wǒ dǎguò nǐ ma? Wǒ gǎn dǎ nǐ ma?
Have I ever hit you? Do I ever dare hit you?

我打你后我还能活吗?
Wǒ dǎ nǐ hòu wǒ hái néng huó ma?
Can I live after I hit you? 

El,大哥,爸爸,妈妈……他们都会来找我的……
El, dàgē, bàba, māmā……tāmen dūhuì lái zhǎo wǒ de……
El, big brother, dad, mom... They will all find me...

谁让你来烦我的?
Shéi ràng nǐ lái fán wǒ de?
Who ask you to come and annoy me?

是谁哭着说她一个人呢?...
Shì shéi kūzhe shuō tā yīgè rén ne...?
Who is the one that cry and say she is all by herself...?

El 真是个八卦!
El zhēnshi gè bāguà!
El is such a gossiper!

那不是八卦。 是报...
Nà bùshì bāguà. Shì bào...
That is not gossiping. It's reporting...

你们两个都不想结婚吗?
Nǐmen liǎng gè dōu bùxiǎng jiéhūn ma?
Don't both of you want to get married?

现在谁在八卦,嗯?
Xiànzài shéi zài bāguà, ń?
Who is gossiping now, huh?

这不是八卦。 是问...
Zhè bùshì bāguà. Shì wèn...
This is not gossiping. It's asking...

我会在基地告诉你...
Wǒ huì zài jīdì gàosù nǐ...
I'll tell you at the base...

在基地,你有时间告诉我吗?
Zài jīdì, nǐ yǒu shíjiān gàosù wǒ ma?
At the base, do you have time to tell me?

如果我不在,我会让艾尔告诉你……
Rúguǒ wǒ bùzài, wǒ huì ràng ài ěr gàosù nǐ……
If I am not around, I'll ask El to tell you...

如果他也不在呢?
Rúguǒ tā yě bùzài ne?
What if he's not around too?

那我就安排其他人陪你八卦...
Nà wǒ jiù ānpái qítā rén péi nǐ bāguà...
Then I'll arrange other people to acompany you gossiping...

哥....我快30岁了...
Gē.... Wǒ kuài 30 suìle...
Brother.... I am turning 30 years old...

我知道啊...
Wǒ zhīdào a...
I know...

但是为什么我感觉像个三岁的孩子……
Dànshì wèishéme wǒ gǎnjué xiàng gè sān suì de háizi……
But why do I feel like a 3 years old....

我还需要人照顾我关心我...
Wǒ hái xūyào rén zhàogù wǒ guānxīn wǒ...
I still need someone to take care of me and care about me...

不管你30岁还是3岁,你还是个妹妹……
Bùguǎn nǐ 30 suì háishì 3 suì, nǐ háishì gè mèimei……
Be you are 30 years old or 3 years old, you are still a younger sister...

你当然需要被照顾, 被关心... 
Nǐ dāngrán xūyào bèi zhàogù, bèi guānxīn... 
Of course you need to be cared for...

就算给你添麻烦……?
Jiùsuàn gěi nǐ tiān máfan……?
Even if it will trouble you...?

就是麻烦... 
Jiùshì máfan... 
It's troublesome... 

不过...照顾你本来就是我的责任... 我乐意的...
Bùguò... zhàogù nǐ běnlái jiùshì wǒ de zérèn...Wǒ lèyì de...
But.... it's originally my responsibility to take care of you... I am happy to...

哥... 我又开始爱你了……
Gē... Wǒ yòu kāishǐ ài nǐle……
Brother... I'm starting to love you again...

谁是你的no. 1? 我还是El?
Shéi shì nǐ de No. 1? Wǒ háishì El?
Who is your No. 1? Me or El?


你!
Nǐ!
You!

谁最配做你的哥哥呢?
Shéi zuì pèi zuò nǐ dí gēgē ne? 
Who's most suitable to be your brother? 

当然是你!
Dāngrán shì nǐ!
Of course it's you!

打不打我?
Dǎ bù dǎ wǒ?
Hit me or not?

谁敢打你啊?
Shéi gǎn dǎ nǐ a?
Who dares to hit you?

你啊
Nǐ a
You...

你是老大! 我要打也打不过你...
Nǐ shì lǎodà! Wǒ yào dǎ yě dǎ bùguò nǐ...
You're the boss! I can't beat you even if I want to...

那 ... 来基地好不好?
Nà... Lái jīdì hǎobù hǎo?
Then... how about coming to the base?

基地里有多少人?
Jīdì li yǒu duōshǎo rén?
How many people are there in the base?

50多……为什么?
50 Duō……wèishéme? 
More than 50 ...why? 


如果我去,我也必须去晨跑吗?
Rúguǒ wǒ qù, wǒ yě bìxū qù chén pǎo ma?
If I go, do I have to go for the morning jog?

Of course!
当然!
Dāngrán!


做饭?
Zuò fàn?
Cook?

和基地战友一起……
Hé jīdì zhànyǒu yīqǐ……
Together with the base comrades... 


洗碗?
Xǐ wǎn?
Washing the dishes?

用水...
Yòngshuǐ...
Use water...


你能不能认真一点吗?
Nǐ néng bùnéng rènzhēn yīdiǎn ma?
Can you be more serious?

你不是用水洗碗吗?
Nǐ bùshì yòngshuǐ xǐ wǎn ma?
Did you not use water to wash dishes?


我要疯了和你说话
Wǒ yào fēngle hé nǐ shuōhuà
I'm going crazy talking to you

那你问那么多干嘛?
Nà nǐ wèn nàme duō gàn ma?
Then why did you ask so much?


我就是随便问啊...
Wǒ jiùshì suíbiàn wèn a...
I'm just asking...

早跑、晚跑、罚跑、洗碗、洗衣服、做饭、打扫厕所、拖地、收银、学习、休息、吃饭、豆腐窝。 一切都是基地里最基本的东西.
Zǎo pǎo, wǎn pǎo, fá pǎo, xǐ wǎn, xǐ yīfú, zuò fàn, dǎsǎo cèsuǒ, tuō dì, shōuyín, xuéxí, xiūxí, chīfàn, dòufu wō. Yīqiè dōu shì jīdì lǐ zuì jīběn de dōngxī.
Morning jog, evening jog, punishment jog, washing the dishes, washing the clothes, cooking, cleaning the toilets, mopping the floor,  banket, study, resting, eating, the tofu blanket. All is the basic thing in the base.


你还有什么要问的吗?
Nǐ hái yǒu shé me yào wèn de ma?
Do you have anything else to ask?


基地里的人和你一样凶吗?
Jīdì lǐ de rén hé nǐ yīyàng xiōng ma?
Are the people in the base as fierce as you?

如果我说是,你还会来吗?
Rúguǒ wǒ shuō shì, nǐ hái huì lái ma?
If I say yes, will you still come?


我不相信你...
Wǒ bù xiāngxìn nǐ...
I do not believe you...

那我再告诉你一件事。 El 是基地里最凶的。
Nà wǒ zài gàosù nǐ yī jiàn shì. El shì jīdì lǐ zuì xiōng de.
Then I will tell you one more thing. El is the most fierce in the base.

你当我傻? 他这么温柔...
Nǐ dāng wǒ shǎ? Tā zhème wēnróu...
You think i'm stupid? He's so gentle...

如果你不相信我也没关系...
Rúguǒ nǐ bù xiāngxìn wǒ yě méiguānxì...
It's fine if you don't trust me...

我倒要看看,有你在的时候,他还能不能这么凶……
Wǒ dào yào kàn kàn, yǒu nǐ zài de shíhòu, tā hái néng bùnéng zhème xiōng……
I want to see if he can still be that fierce when you are around...


哥 .. 你..! 你到底是不是好人啊?
gē.. Nǐ..! Nǐ dàodǐ shì bùshì hǎorén a?
Brother.. You..! Are you actually a good person?

好了不说了。 我们走吧!
Hǎole bù shuōle. Wǒmen zǒu ba!
Well, let's not talk about it. let's go!

谁说我要跟你走?
Shéi shuō wǒ yào gēn nǐ zǒu?
Who said I want to go with you?

诶你! 我已经陪你说话好多时间了..
Éi nǐ!  Wǒ yǐjīng gēn nǐ shuōle hěnduō le..
Hey you! I have been talking with you for a long time..

给我一个面子吧
Gěi wǒ yīgè miànzi ba
Do me this favor okay


那谁是老大?
Nà shéi shì lǎodà?
Who is the boss then?

你...!你是老大!
You...! You are the boss!
Nǐ!... Nǐ shì lǎodà!


走! 走! 走! 
Zǒu! Zǒu! Zǒu! 
Go! Go! Go! 


等一下!
Děng yīxià!
Wait a moment!

还有什么?
Hái yǒu shé me?
What else?


叫我“姐姐”
Jiào wǒ “jiějiě”
Call me "Big Sister"

妹妹
Mèimei
Little sister


叫我“姐姐”
Jiào wǒ “jiějiě”
Call me "Big Sister"

妹妹
Mèimei
Little sister


姐姐
jiějiě
Big Sister

妹妹
Mèimei
Little sister


姐姐
jiějiě
Big Sister

You really want to be hit, huh?
你真的很想被打,是吗?
Nǐ zhēn de hěn xiǎng bèi dǎ, shì ma?

你再说...我真打! 我不管...
Nǐ zàishuō... wǒ zhēndǎ! wǒ bùguǎn...
Say it again...I will really hit you! I don't care...

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哇! 这是谁的妹妹啊?, 真很听话...
Wa! Zhè shì shéi de mèimei a?, Zhēn hěn tīnghuà...
Wow! Whose sister is this?, So obedient...

我们走吧! 小妹妹
Wǒmen zǒu ba! Xiǎo mèimei
Let's go! Little sister


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