The Spring

Spring has greeted,

About a week ago,

In few more weeks,

If the Peach Blossom Pavilion does still exists,

It would have been so beautiful.

The scent of the air,

Would have the the fragrance of the Peach Blossom.

The scent I would not dare to miss.

Not when I have made my decision.

Spring has greeted, 

Ramadan too, 

InshaAllah will greet us very soon.

What a priceless gift would it be,

To be able to live throughout the coming blessing month.

May Allah grant us all the honor,

To meet ramadan again this year.

Spring has greeted,

So do the day of the Nisfu Shaaban.

It is another starting over point of our life.

It is another chance.

To reclaim the ownership of your very own self.

It is another chance.

To start making the right choice in life.

It is undeniable 

That I have been handling things the Heracovian way even until now. I still find the Heracovian style, very much fit my personality.

It is undeniable 

That my Heracovian way of handling things has somehow affected by the long years I spent on the tower of the Shadow Castle. I developed some traits from the Shadow

It is undeniable
That I even cultivate the culture of Jianghu after settling down in the Peach Blossom Pavillion for years. 

It is undeniable.

That sometimes, it felt as if I am being governed by so many different styles of life in which I myself couldn't differentiate, what is best and what is not.

 

My goal now is to govern myself in a completely different style.

The hardest parts are:

How do I take over, tackle my old self?

How do I take over the control over the endless suggesting thoughts in my head?

How do I differentiate, which thoughts are really the new me, which thoughts are poisonous, which thoughts are schematic? 

I have been in battles for so long so I couldn't help but being very calculative and cunning even with myself. 

I have been living life in the battlefield the whole years of my life, so I unconsiously tend to attack than defense

I have been a ruthless general, leading my army superiorly, endlessly wounded and also endlessly wounded others in order to protect myself as the ruler of the nation.

 

What that shall not change in my newly formed government is:

The purpose of my Life. The Highest Priority. Allah and Islam

Sincerely,

Precious